I'm wanna talk about yesterday.A day of awakening of my soul.A day of pain. A day where all hopes seem to vanish.A day of failure which is needed for me to reflect.....
The long awaited(for my seniors) and dreaded(for my platoon) IRON-MAN PT Session came. I begin with positive attitude, with hopes of enduring through this spiritual "wilderness" and finally getting the coverted position in orinteering com 2009.....But ended it with a strained ankle,sense of guilt and hopes vanished.
For IRON_MAN PT we nid be in long 4, carry a haversack of three 1.5L bottles and a rifle for PT(try knocking down with these things on you) with unreasonable scoldings from our sgts.It was the time where those people who couldn't endure will get pulled out till theres only 5 left.They will be the orinteering com 09.The torture i will never forget.It's basically 3 hrs non-stop rigorous exercise like running,shouting,pumping etc. In the end i was called to fall out because while we were in pumping position i helped my platoon mate to lift his haversack up(it dropped on the floor) .I had no choice but to squat cause the weight of my haversack is unbearable and i have to keep my rifle and jockey cap on my hands and still have to help him.The sgt think i was slacking and pulled me out.Felt bad sitting down one side while the others are pumping til i dropped some tears.Made up my mind i will endure through to prove that i can go back there and earn that title.Then the sgt called us out and tell us to do suicide(running)Each round the slowest 2 will get kicked out.Every round i was hesitating whether i should give up.I was seriously thinking of giving up.It all ended when i strained my ankle:(
Father,Father,Father send some guidiance from above.I don;t understand why can't i endure this thing through.My seniors have gone through more IRON-MAN trainings than us.I have come this far enduring the past PT trainings, including the PT squad CCA orientation perfromance,Pulau Ubin Hike,Part A Camp,Cross-country intervals etc.I have Christ in me.But why did I fail?
But something more important that i learnt was the BONDING of my PART.Bonding is not just going home together as a part or eating as a part.But its the spirit of not abandoning anyone.it's the strong unity of the part which anyone cannot break.Its the mentality of either we surive this as a part or we die as a part.I believe there's something we can do even though it's a bit late.C'mon PART B we can prove the sgts wrong and care more about our Part as long as every1 make an effort.That is how normal friends become blood brothers.
Part B Camp is coming.I still don;t know how we are gonna get that far.Why can't we endure through for a few hours, a few days to get to that glory which will leave a legacy?Why do I always say i die die will push on but in the end when face with weariness i will just give up and let go?Why my seniors can pump until they are forced to report sick but i will hesitate whether to fall out?I hope that when i pass out at the end of my 4 yrs in AHSNCC i will be proud that at least my Part is really BONDED.We gotta do something.
If i'm gonna carry on reflecting,i might just carry on until i die in front of the com.HAHA!
Back to my strained ankle.Didn't know Sharlene also had twisted her ankle during NP training.A pair of pai-kahs.HAHA!XD
The long awaited(for my seniors) and dreaded(for my platoon) IRON-MAN PT Session came. I begin with positive attitude, with hopes of enduring through this spiritual "wilderness" and finally getting the coverted position in orinteering com 2009.....But ended it with a strained ankle,sense of guilt and hopes vanished.
For IRON_MAN PT we nid be in long 4, carry a haversack of three 1.5L bottles and a rifle for PT(try knocking down with these things on you) with unreasonable scoldings from our sgts.It was the time where those people who couldn't endure will get pulled out till theres only 5 left.They will be the orinteering com 09.The torture i will never forget.It's basically 3 hrs non-stop rigorous exercise like running,shouting,pumping etc. In the end i was called to fall out because while we were in pumping position i helped my platoon mate to lift his haversack up(it dropped on the floor) .I had no choice but to squat cause the weight of my haversack is unbearable and i have to keep my rifle and jockey cap on my hands and still have to help him.The sgt think i was slacking and pulled me out.Felt bad sitting down one side while the others are pumping til i dropped some tears.Made up my mind i will endure through to prove that i can go back there and earn that title.Then the sgt called us out and tell us to do suicide(running)Each round the slowest 2 will get kicked out.Every round i was hesitating whether i should give up.I was seriously thinking of giving up.It all ended when i strained my ankle:(
Father,Father,Father send some guidiance from above.I don;t understand why can't i endure this thing through.My seniors have gone through more IRON-MAN trainings than us.I have come this far enduring the past PT trainings, including the PT squad CCA orientation perfromance,Pulau Ubin Hike,Part A Camp,Cross-country intervals etc.I have Christ in me.But why did I fail?
But something more important that i learnt was the BONDING of my PART.Bonding is not just going home together as a part or eating as a part.But its the spirit of not abandoning anyone.it's the strong unity of the part which anyone cannot break.Its the mentality of either we surive this as a part or we die as a part.I believe there's something we can do even though it's a bit late.C'mon PART B we can prove the sgts wrong and care more about our Part as long as every1 make an effort.That is how normal friends become blood brothers.
Part B Camp is coming.I still don;t know how we are gonna get that far.Why can't we endure through for a few hours, a few days to get to that glory which will leave a legacy?Why do I always say i die die will push on but in the end when face with weariness i will just give up and let go?Why my seniors can pump until they are forced to report sick but i will hesitate whether to fall out?I hope that when i pass out at the end of my 4 yrs in AHSNCC i will be proud that at least my Part is really BONDED.We gotta do something.
If i'm gonna carry on reflecting,i might just carry on until i die in front of the com.HAHA!
Back to my strained ankle.Didn't know Sharlene also had twisted her ankle during NP training.A pair of pai-kahs.HAHA!XD
A Part without a part is APART!
